Kris' birthday!!

Today was my brothers birthday he would have been 34!! Today was a hard day for me but I made it though it. Ben has been so good as a husband and friend. He has been by my side though everything. I went to work in the morning Ben got off work early to help me with the things I wanted to get done today. We went and got balloons and took them to Kris' gravesite, didn't spend along time there cause it was snowing and very windy. Then we meet with all the family for dinner and it was a bitter sweet time!! Got a cake to celebrate his birthday. It has been almost 3 months and it seem like forever since I have seen him or talked to him :( I miss him so much and not a day goes by I don't think of him!!! I wonder often what he is doing or thinking. I sure hope he remembers us down here! I hope as the time goes by it gets easier for all of us. I always remind myself that god wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle. I can tell you one thing this has made me a stronger person and I will never take anything for granted!!! I love you brother :)